today again at ofis yg boring..no mood to get out for lunch..i just had it on my desk...:)
tak tersangkanya 2011 dah nak tutp buku ya.terasa baru je start new year.. and yet so many things yg tak terbuat pun lagi utk tahun ni..dan banyak jugak yg terjadi, yg un predicted ya.
just to list down, mayb 1 day aku terasa nk ingat balik, when the time comes :) myb when im 35 ?? hahha lolz
what happened throughout 2011 (unpredicted):
1. early this year around january...i started dating again,since i break up dah last end of year. so, xde la banyak sgt calon... but yeah..single life is great jugak :D hikhik..mampus kalau nash baca ya! masa single la paling best sbb time ni, im free utk date wit girlfriends... esp..roro.. bnyk kali kuar hangout dgn dia okie?... tgk mana2 guy yg macho2 ala2 korea... yes we did that!! haha... but yeah, finally semua tu aku tutp da buku, i realized that living alone without partner also mcm disaster :( busann..ahaahaa...so ntah cmane aku berkawan balik dgn nash, which is my former secondary class mate yg aku xsuka ya.. sbb dulu cikgu salu puji2 dia...and yes he was the best student kat sekolah, without even reading the books like i did.bengang ok? then early 2011 we end up as a couple..rasminya 11.02.2011 kihkih :) love u syg haha!!
2. SWitching work place.yes. tak tau kenapa. but i agreed if u say i selalu tukar2 tempat keje..memang mcm ni cuz salu ada je yg tak kene dgn tempat keje aku tuh.. yg ni kat Avail beauty ni..ok la so far dah almost 10 months kat sni.. aku masuk march tahun ni...hopefully im gonna stay longer! tapi mcm tak, cuz im hoping to get a job in UM sooner.tho nash x de pun cakap nk tolong :( atau just after married.i nak quit.. nash la jaga and bagi duit kan? haha bole cmtu?
3. yg ketiga is ... this year juga aku alami pelbagai jenis kekangan kewangan... mcm hell.. tak tau kenapa.. tp bersyukur sgt sbb ada nash..he helps me a lot to go through this hard time!
hopefully i can pay back every single cent :) i promised syg! duit dividen asb tahun ni i bagi semua kat u haha!!
4. sad thing ever this year is (still) when my father sakit & diagnosed with liver cancer last july... can u imagine how i felt!? sedih dan tak faham why... that is my feeling sampai sekarang... teringat time specialist doc at ppum told me that my dad's condition is bad enaf. and he only can survive not more than 3 months... are u kidding me doc?? what the hell are u merepek ni... takkan xde cara to safe him?? chemo? any....? medicine??? stupid question mayb itu doc fikir apa aku ckp... tp doc ckp my dad dah tua... 69y.o ...doc ckp he cannot tahan the chemo effect.. he was so weak..with bulging belly. yes, perut dia besar sbb doc ckp liver is fully damaged.. cannot be repaired! :( so pity tgk my father .. tak sgka dia akan go tru this pain! perut dia buncit sbb segala apa yg dia mkn dan bahan toksik yg ada, liver xdapat nk proses lagi.. so liquid comes out trout the digestive area.. aku xde touch my dad punya perut.. sbb yes aku takut sedih, nangis...hanya pada malam terakhir dia still alive.. i touched it.. and so surprised, it was hard :( kesian my father...kesian.. why Allah duga him and us with this ? so sad... he passed away on 10 october 2011...selang sebulan his bday...on 12.09.11 we did celebrate tho dia tak larat nk duduk pun...sedihnya bila igt...we all as anak..smpai tak tahu..what else to do..ubat kampung semua kitrg try ikhtiar.. ubt dari new zealand pun kitorg order... hanya ini yg ktorg mmpu buat..dgn harapan miracle can happen...tp xde... he passed away and i knw he still have d strength to live and to survive :( he wants to stay longer.. i know abah... i miss u :) al fatihah
5. actually there's so much to type ya..tapi mood dah kacau tgh bersedih..once i dah okie..sambung la lg.. *_______*
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